I got some time in my hands, but i don't know what 2 do with it.
Anyone got any suggestions?! It could help.
Why say ''hello'', if u r not staying?!?!
Stop that!! It hurts real bad and deep!!
I can tell by da look on my face i'm not happy .. ''could that b possible?!'' u say.
Of course it is .. and easy. Is da easiest thing 4 me 2 do. Maybe is my normal state and i'm supposed 2 b like this all da time i can. I mean it!! When i got a long time without crying, i start missing da drops of tears falling through my chicks, and da intense feeling on my eyes, like they're about 2 abandone my face; and then, in da morning, when da tears r dry, i get da biggest eyes and da pain is more intense, in and out, but calmed, and i tell myself: ''i should've cut my veins last night .. now there's another day 2 live. This is 2 hard''. But still, i still hang on, asking God 4 forgiveness.
My face turns so hard on myself and others, and all of them i blame 4 my misserable existense.
After, something lights my mouth and i laugh again, but feeling, still, empty and hipocrite, which i hate [da hipocrite part], so i manage 2 go back 2 my hard face untill i forget why i'm like this in da first place. This kind of state is rare in me, but i guess i enjoy it while it lasts.
What else can i do?!
In da mean time, my subconsience keeps on da hard work: when attack again with horrible thoughts and events full of pain and anger; and rage takes over me, and when i least expect it [yeah, right!!], da tears come down my pillow, again. The sun is out. Is dark. Is raining. Is my favorite part of da day and state of nature. But still, my room hosts it's own rainy night inside.
Don't worry [like u will ..]. It happens ALL DA TIME. I'd b really sad if it didn't [TRUE].
Anyone got any suggestions?! It could help.
Why say ''hello'', if u r not staying?!?!
Stop that!! It hurts real bad and deep!!
I can tell by da look on my face i'm not happy .. ''could that b possible?!'' u say.
Of course it is .. and easy. Is da easiest thing 4 me 2 do. Maybe is my normal state and i'm supposed 2 b like this all da time i can. I mean it!! When i got a long time without crying, i start missing da drops of tears falling through my chicks, and da intense feeling on my eyes, like they're about 2 abandone my face; and then, in da morning, when da tears r dry, i get da biggest eyes and da pain is more intense, in and out, but calmed, and i tell myself: ''i should've cut my veins last night .. now there's another day 2 live. This is 2 hard''. But still, i still hang on, asking God 4 forgiveness.
My face turns so hard on myself and others, and all of them i blame 4 my misserable existense.
After, something lights my mouth and i laugh again, but feeling, still, empty and hipocrite, which i hate [da hipocrite part], so i manage 2 go back 2 my hard face untill i forget why i'm like this in da first place. This kind of state is rare in me, but i guess i enjoy it while it lasts.
What else can i do?!
In da mean time, my subconsience keeps on da hard work: when attack again with horrible thoughts and events full of pain and anger; and rage takes over me, and when i least expect it [yeah, right!!], da tears come down my pillow, again. The sun is out. Is dark. Is raining. Is my favorite part of da day and state of nature. But still, my room hosts it's own rainy night inside.
Don't worry [like u will ..]. It happens ALL DA TIME. I'd b really sad if it didn't [TRUE].
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