Can u really forget about somebody through someone else?! Why all the things that makes u feel awesome have 2 end?! When u think u can't find meaning 2 ur life, something awesome happens. It gets u distracted, ilusioned, nervious, frustrated .. and then, boom, is gone. Although, this is better than waiting ur entire life 4 something 2 happen, right?! Or, what if this things occur so we can get ready 4 da real amazing things that God has 4 us?! I don't know about u, but that's what my heart wants 2 believe, even when my brain shows me a different evidence.
I've been going through life looking 4 love, attention, answers, achievements. I hate 2 feel everything is a competition. Fighting 4 my family's love?! Trying hard 2 make people like me?! Feeling everybody is better than me?! Thinking i could never have a chance?! Can i have a break, please?!?! I know exactly how my head works and i can work it into magic .. but my heart is a different issue.
He's always been her weakness. She's been her precious doll. He, on the other hand, was never really around. And she, has been here all da time, but haven't notice me. I'm tired of competing. I'm not going anywhere with it, anyway. I won't do it anymore. This is killing me. Whenever i think or do something, i can't help 2 think what would he or she do in da same situation .. on top of that, i just feel they could do it better!! I can't never really enjoy myself, even when i'm alone!! My entire world spins around everybody else's life, trying 2 fill my own. I'm going crazy. This is leading 2 nowhere.
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[everybody needs some rush in their life .. i enjoy it every second]
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