Please

I got friends; yes...i know,
but i just can't open so much to anyone.
It's very hard for me to fit and make a difference.
Not because i'm a bad person or do any harm;
is just so hard to mingle and touch a heart.
Some people told me i have, but to me is not so big deal.
Talking to myself feels so somfortable.
That's why i identify so badly with John Nash...
It is easier to talk to yourself and create people your own way.
They just can't hurt you!!
I change to fast, but that habbit i don't leave it.
I love it so bad!!
When i'm alone [and lonely], i'm peaceful!!
I feel, at least, a good and nice ''nothing''...
Words in the air don't let me concentrate in myself.
I want to feel a great silence and a partner...
Do you know what i mean?
I want someone to share all i am.
Where can i find it?!
I want to get up in the morning and have a reason to live.
I want a reason to get up!!
I want to dream about that person, that wonderful person;
i want to love that person: dance with him, laugh, cry, trust...
I want it all with him!!
I want to be ilusioned, in love, with a future full of adventures,
PLEASE!!
I love my friends and they say they love me back.
Is just that to me is not so true.
Hmm...
Why can't anybody like me for real?! Or do they?...