OUTTIE!

I'M HATING MY NAILS RIGHT NOW. MY FINGERS HURT BECAUSE OF ALL THE BITTING. BUT, THE SHOW MUST GO ON.

LISTENING TO EMINEM, WITH PROBLEMS TO SLEEP & THINKING THAT I HAVE TO WORK TOMORROW... BLAH! I'M DONE. WHAT'S GOING ON TO ME?! THIS ISN'T MARYLIN!

THESE PASTS DAYS HAVE BEEN BLANK FOR MY HEAD & HEART. WHY?! WHO THE F*CK KNOWS! NOT ME! YEAH, OK, MY FATHER'S BEEN AT THE CLINIC [WE ALMOST LOSE HIM] & SINCE I'VE BEEN THERE ALL WEEK, I'M DISCONNECTED FROM EVERYBODY. FINE! BUT NOW HE'S OUT OF MAYOR DANGER & I'M STILL FEELING LIKE CRAP. WELL, NOT LIKE CRAP, ACTUALLY: WORST! WORST! WORST!

WOW! IT'S GOOD TO GET THESE THINGS OUT OF YOUR SYSTEM. I'M SURPRISED I'M LETTING PEOPLE GET INSIDE MY MIND LIKE THIS. BUT I NEED TO DO IT. MAYBE SOMEONE WILL COMMENT... WHO KNOWS?!
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MY COCA-COLA ONLY ON WEEKENDS, SATURDAYS & SUNDAYS

NOT SO MANY FRIENDS TO TALK TO

TONS OF WORK

LACK OF INSPIRATION & WILL FOR 'DOING'

NOT LEARNING ENOUGH EACH DAY

EMPTY SMILE

UN-ENERGIZED

LESS POKER PLAYING

NO... CUTTLING

FEW HOURS OF SLEEP

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SHOULD I GO ON?! EVEN IF I SHOULD OR WANTED TO, I CAN'T! I'M NUUUUUUUUUMB!

[everybody needs some rush in their life .. i enjoy it every second]